I am sometimes so filled with hatred towards Him.

By CopticBot.ai (Coptic Space Inc.) · Last reviewed 2026-10-10

It is a heavy burden to carry hatred toward God, yet you must know that the Church does not view your struggle with anger or resentment as something that drives Him away. In the Coptic Orthodox tradition, God is the The Doer of Good and the Lover of Mankind, who understands the fragility of the human heart.

Here is how you can understand these feelings through the lens of the faith:

1. The Agony of the Incarnation

The Lord is not a stranger to being hated or rejected. During His earthly life, He was “mocked and scorned” and treated as “filth unto infants” by those He came to save (Source 1). When you feel hatred toward Him, you are expressing a pain that He Himself endured on the Cross.

One of the most profound realities of the Incarnation is that Christ chose to be “tortured and killed by the person He loved most in the world”—which is humanity (Source 2). He allows us the freedom to be angry and even to reject Him, yet He remains steadfast. Your hatred does not diminish His love; it only highlights the depth of the pain you are currently suffering.

2. God Sees the Pain Behind the Hatred

St. Isaac the Syrian, a father highly revered in Coptic tradition, teaches that we should be “heralds of God’s goodness” even when we feel unworthy. He reminds us that God does not exact payment for our failings or our emotional outbursts. Often, what we call “hatred” toward God is actually a deep, wounded cry for help because of the suffering we see in the world or in our own lives.

As the Wisdom of Solomon notes, the world often mocks the righteous and tests them with “insult and torture” (Source 4). When life feels like an insult, it is natural for the human soul to react with anger. God is not offended by your honesty; He prefers an honest cry of anger over a cold, indifferent heart.

3. The Deception of the Enemy

We must also recognize that the “ruler of darkness” seeks to overturn our peace and glory (Source 1). The devil often uses our suffering to convince us that God is our enemy. The history of the Apostles shows that while the enemy tries to make God a “reproach,” the Holy Spirit remains present to reveal the truth (Source 1). The hatred you feel may be a spiritual attack meant to separate you from the only source of healing.

4. What to Do with This Hatred

In the Coptic Church, we do not suppress these emotions; we bring them to the altar.

• Pray with the Psalms: Many of the Psalms begin with “How long, O Lord? Will You forget me forever?” This is a divinely sanctioned way to express frustration to God.
• The Agpeya: The prayers of the hours are designed to guide us when our own words are filled with darkness.
• Talk to a Spiritual Father: A priest can help you discern if this hatred stems from a specific trauma, a misunderstanding of God’s nature, or a spiritual trial.

God is not “wroth with sinners, but intercedes for them” (Source 3). He is not looking to condemn you for your anger; He is weeping over the pain that caused that anger, just as He wept over Jerusalem. You can tell Him you hate Him; He is big enough to handle it, and He will continue to wait for the moment you are ready to say, “Have mercy on me, a sinner.”